I’m a self-centered, selfish, over-privileged daughter who only thinks about my own satisfaction and pleasures, going overseas (school trips mostly) multiple times when you haven’t, spending so much money on a stupid certificate, and will be needing you to spend even more money on my university education. I spend a hell lot of money on my hair, my clothes, my interests. You think that I don’t save, that I don’t think for the family.

You scrimp and save, drive through the night, dared not take rests and would rather smoke and down coffee to stay awake while driving, be willing to give up your own pleasures for my education (tuition, school trips, school fees), splurge on food thinking we would like it (food is the only thing you would splurge on), increase my pocket money (that I politely declined but you insisted).

Why, hasn’t it occured that I’d always had this family in mind when I decide on things? Going to JC, not going on that trip (it was for YOUR holiday. It wasn’t that I didn’t want to go), trying not to antagonize you with any extra monetary matters, stopping my tuition after a mere month (it was useless, and such a privilege is something I know we can’t afford, my guilty conscience eats me up). I know it isn’t a lot. But I had thought of us. 

I am not expecting you to provide for me excessively. I know what it is to be independent, I know I should be independent. And I know that I will be, soon. I am not expecting you to pay for any of my extra expenses. I’ll earn all that myself. I’ll return you the money you’ve spent on me. 

I’m not that unfilial daughter you think I am.